Demon..

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Once,
I told myself..
To take you travelling all over the world, when I have the ability to do so...
Taiwan, China, Japan, Europe, Korea..
Wherever you like,
Wherever you want,
Wherever you wish to go..
I promise,
I will take you there..
Enjoying yourself with grandma..
The moment of you, me and the TANs' family..
The moment of ours..

Once,
I told myself,
To serve you whatever food you like, the food that you can't eat at this moment,
grapes, curry, prawns, durians,
Whatever you like,
whatever you want,
Whatever you wish to eat..
Tell me,
I promise,
We can have them all,
together,
and forever...

Once,
I told myself,
I wanna bring smiles to your gloomy face,
I wanna hold your hands and walk with you along the streets,
I wanna give you a big hug and a big kiss on ur cheek,
I wanna thank you for everything you have done for us,
I wanna you to witness the proud moment of me, graduating from the university,
I wanna you to walk me down the aisle, handing me over to another man of my life,
I wanna you to take care of my children, telling them stories of ur life,
I wanna you to enjoy your life to the fullest,holding hands with grandma for the rest of your life...
I wanna repay the whatever good deed you have ever done for us, even if it is just something that seemed unimportant
I wanna do something for you... I wanna..

Pleasa,
Give me the chance to do so..
Give me the oppurtunity to fulfil my promise..

It's hurt,
when I see you sitting on the sofa, locking your eyebrows, closing your eyes, looking miserably,
but not chatting with us like what you did when we were young..
It's torturing,
when I see you remaining silence, enduring all the pain and illness yourself, telling us not to worry...
It's unbearable,
when I see you looking at us eating all the sweet-type food, swallowing your saliva, controlling yourself not to eat the food for your health sake...
It's painful,
when I see you trying hard to stand up, when you said that you felt feeble,
when I see you having difficulties to speak a word, when you can't control your mouth shape,
when I see you complaning that you felt dizzy, when you were trying to walk,
when I see you looking at us blankly, trying to catch what we were saying, even with your hearing-aid on..


I could do nothing, but cried silently,
the moment I saw you being carried into the car, being admitted to the hospital..
I forced a smile, with tears rolling in my eyes,
The moment you looked at me..
I broke down, when the car slowly disappearing into a little dot,
Crying silently under the pillow..
Tears streaming down my cheeks, uncontrobly..
Theng gave me a pat that soothed my heart,
Syan told me not to cry that warmed my body..
Yea,
I don't want you to worry for us..
I promise,
To stay at home, and be a good girl,
Waiting for you to come back home..

Please,
Get well soon..
I wish to sacrifice anything in my life for your health..
ANYTHING
I mean it
Remember?
We are going overseas when you recover..
Stay healthy..
I love you, grandpa



God bless